TALE XIX. THE CONVERT A tapster is a good trade, an old cloak makes a new jerkin; a wither'd serving-man, a fresh tapster. Merry Wives of Windsor, Act i, Scene 3. A fellow, sir, that I have known go about with troll-my-dames. Winter's Tale, Act iv, Scene 2. I myself, sometimes leaving the fear of God on the left hand, and hiding mine honour in my necessity, am fain to shuffle, to hedge, and to lurch. Merry Wives of Windsor, Act ii, Scene 2. I have liv'd long enough: My May of life Macbeth, Act v, Scene 3. SOME to our hero have a hero's name But who that name in early life assign'd Who soon, thus cast upon the world, began To show the talents of a thriving man. With spirit high John learn'd the world to brave, And in both senses was a ready knave; Knave as of old, obedient, keen, and quick, Knave as at present, skill'd to shift and trick; Some humble part of many trades he caught, He for the builder and the painter wrought; For serving-maids on secret errands ran, The waiter's helper, and the hostler's man; And when he chanced (oft chanced he) place to lose, ; His varying genius shone in blacking shoes : Such was the boy, and such the man had been, But fate or happier fortune changed the scene; A fever seized him, ' He should surely dieHe fear'd, and lo! a friend was praying by ; With terror moved, this teacher he address'd, And all the errors of his youth confess'd : The good man kindly clear'd the sinner's way To lively hope, and counsell'd him to pray ; Who then resolved, should he from sickness rise, His infant-state owed nothing to their care- To quit cards, liquors, poaching, oaths, and His mind neglected, and his body bare; lies: His health restored, he yet resolved, and grew True to his masters, to their meeting true; His old companions at his sober face Laugh'd loud, while he, attesting it was grace, With tears besought them all his calling to His trade encouraged, and were pleased to find embrace : To his new friends such convert gave applause, Was the impression, and it lasted long; Pleased the grave friends, nor less his solemn tone, A hand so ready, with such humble mind. And now, his health restored, his spirits eased, He wish'd to marry, if the teachers pleased. The lengthen'd face of care, the low and For friends and strangers all were pleased to inward groan : The stern good men exulted, when they saw Those timid looks of penitence and awe; Nor thought that one so passive, humble, meek, Had yet a creed and principles to seek. The faith that reason finds, confirms, avows, The hopes, the views, the comforts he allows These were not his, who by his feelings found, And by them only, that his faith was sound; Feelings of terror these, for evil past, Feelings of hope, to be received at last; Now weak, now lively, changing with the day, These were his feelings, and he felt his way. Sprung from such sources, will this faith remain While these supporters can their strength retain : As heaviest weights the deepest rivers pass, While icy chains fast bind the solid mass; So, born of feelings, faith remains secure, Long as their firmness and their strength endure: But when the waters in their channel glide, A bridge must bear us o'er the threat'ning tide; Such bridge is reason, and there faith relies, Whether the varying spirits fall or rise. His patrons, still disposed their aid to lend, Behind a counter placed their humble friend; Where pens and paper were on shelves display'd, And pious pamphlets on the windows laid: By nature active, and from vice restrain'd, Increasing trade his bolder views sustain'd; His friends and teachers, finding so much zeal In that young convert whom they taught to feel, CR. deal With one whose care was equal to his zeal. In human friendships, it compels a sigh, To think what trifles will dissolve the tie. John, now become a master of his trade, Perceived how much improvement might be made; 6 And as this prospect open'd to his view, M dread And pious thoughts that once such terrors bred; His habits varied, and he more inclined I then Fear man's control, or stand in awe of men ? 'Tis their advice (their convert's rule and law), And good it is-I will not stand in awe.' Moreover Dighton, though he thought of When in some snug warm room they sit, and books As one who chiefly on the title looks, And by degrees that mind had treasured much The pride indeed to all around appear'd; To make him humble, and confine his views peruse; A deputation from these friends select, Deciding thus, and with this kind intent, 6 6 pen Bills from their ledgers, (world-entangled men !) To 'See with what pride thou hast enlarged thy shop; view thy tempting stores the heedless stop; By what strange names dost thou these Which wantons wear, to make a sinful show? In goodly knowledge-John, wilt learn to How! "Go-"it says, and " to the devil go! make ? Oh! without question, thou wilt go and shake. Well, and art thou proficient in the rules? Why, John, thou grow'st facetious in thy sin; If Satan publish'd, thou wouldst doubtless Jests, novels, dances, and this precious stuff, John,' said the teacher, John,' with To crown thy folly we have seen enough; great concern, 'We see thy frailty, and thy fate discern- This from the churchmen thou hast learn'd, Have colds and fevers on the sabbath-day ; We find thee fitted for each evil work- John, thou art lost; success and worldly pride O'er all thy thoughts and purposes preside, aside : Yet turn; these sin-traps from thy shop expel, And here thy wife, thy Dorothy, behold, John, thou hast made thy wife a Jezebel : Then you beheld us abject, fallen, low, See on her bosom rests the sign of sin, shall find A man of spirit, though to peace inclined; Myself your pupil, and my house your home; Led their meek laymen like a herd of beasts; He, or perchance th' archbishop, may be right. remain ; I thought you saints on earth-but I have found Some sins among you, and the best unsound; The host of sin, and sinful souls to save? fess'd: These, I exclaim'd, are men divine, and gazed On him who taught, delighted and amazed; Glad when he finish'd, if by chance he cast One look on such a sinner, as he pass'd. 'But when I view'd you in a clearer light, And saw the frail and carnal appetite; When, at his humble pray'r, you deign'd to eat, Saints as you are, a civil sinner's meat; When as you sat contented and at ease, Nibbling at leisure on the ducks and peas, And, pleased some comforts in such place to find, You could descend to be a little kind; And gave us hope, in Heaven there might be room For a few souls beside your own to come; While this world's good engaged your carnal view, And like a sinner you enjoy'd it too; 'Wretch that thou art,' an elder cried, ' and gone For everlasting.'- - Go thyself,' said John; 'Depart this instant, let me hear no more; My house my castle is, and that my door.' The hint they took, and from the door withdrew, And John to meeting bade a long adieu; stains, Resentment and not reason broke his chains : own, He might have known that men may be sincere, We shrank beneath your tone, your frown, Though gay and feasting on the savoury That doctrines sound and sober they may teach, Who love to eat with all the glee they preach; Nay, who believe the duck, the grape, the pine, Were not intended for the dog and swine: But Dighton's hasty mind on every theme Ran from the truth, and rested in th' extreme: Flaws in his friends he found, and then withdrew (Vain of his knowledge) from their virtues too. Best of his books he loved the liberal kind, That, if they improve not, still enlarge the mind; And found himself, with such advisers, free Dighton with joy beheld his trade advance, Who, if he wish'd new ways of wealth to seek, Could make her half-crown pamphlet in a week: This he rejected, though without disdain, And chose the old and certain way to gain. Thus he proceeded; trade increased the while, And fortune woo'd him with perpetual smile: And all the ease and comfort converts find The danger of the free-for since that day, No guide had shown, no brethren join'd his way; Forsaking one, he found no second creed, The gain he made was fair and honest gain; By means like these, he saw his wealth increase, And felt his consequence, and dwelt in peace. Our hero's age was threescore years and five, When he exclaim'd, 'Why longer should I strive ? Why more amass, who never must behold appear'd Sadness increased by much he saw and heard : The brethren often at the shop would stay, And make their comments ere they walk'd away: They mark'd the window, fill'd in every pane With lawless prints of reputations slain ; Distorted forms of men with honours graced, And our chief rulers in derision placed : Amazed they stood, remembering well the days, When to be humble was their brother's praise; When at the dwelling of their friend they stopp'd To drop a word, or to receive it dropp'd; Where they beheld the prints of men renown'd, And far-famed preachers pasted all around; (Such mouths! eyes! hair! so prim! so fierce so sleek! They look'd as speaking what is wo to speak): On these the passing brethren loved to dwell— How long they spake ! how strongly! warmly! well! What power had each to dive in mysteries deep, To warm the cold, to make the harden'd weep; To lure, to fright, to soothe, to awe the soul, And list'ning flocks to lead and to control! But now discoursing, as they linger'd near, They tempted John (whom they accused) to hear Their weighty charge- And can the lost-one feel, As in the time of duty, love, and zeal; |