little in comparison with it-thank heaven it has been scoffed at lately almost to a fashion Of late two dainties were before me placed O Stranger thou my nerves from Pipe didst charm- Again thou Stranger gav'st me fresh alarm- I think we are the luckiest fellows in ChristendomBrown could not proceed this morning on account of his feet and lo there is thunder and rain. [Kilmelfort,] July 20th. For these two days past we have been so badly accommodated more particularly in coarse food that I have not been at all in cue to write. Last night poor Brown with his feet blistered and scarcely able to walk, after a trudge of 20 Miles down the Side of Loch Awe had no supper but Eggs and Oat Cake-we have lost the sight of white bread entirely-Now we had eaten nothing but Eggs all day—about 10 a piece and they had become sickening-To-day we have fared rather better—but no oat Cake wanting—we had a small Chicken and even a good bottle of Port but all together the fare is too coarse-I feel it a little.-Another week will break us in. I forgot to tell you that when we came through Glenside it was early in the morning and we were pleased with the noise of Shepherds, Sheep and dogs in the misty heights close above us-we saw none of them for some time, till two came in sight creeping among the Crags like Emmets, yet their voices came quite plainly to us-The approach to Loch Awe was very solemn towards nightfall-the first glance was a streak of water deep in the Bases of large black Mountains.— We had come along a complete mountain road, where if one listened there was not a sound but that of Mountain Streams. We walked 20 Miles by the side of Loch Awe -every ten steps creating a new and beautiful picturesometimes through little wood-there are two islands on the Lake each with a beautiful ruin-one of them rich in ivy. We are detained this morning by the rain. I will tell you exactly where we are. We are between Loch Craignish and the sea just opposite Long Island.1 Yesterday our walk was of this description-the near Hills were not very lofty but many of them steep, beautifully wooded-the distant Mountains in the Hebrides very grand, the Saltwater Lakes coming up between Crags and Islands full tide and scarcely ruffled-sometimes appearing as one large Lake, sometimes as three distinct ones in different directions. At one point we saw afar off a rocky opening into the main sea.- -Wehave also seen an Eagle or two. They move about without the least motion of Wings when in an indolent fit.— I am for the first time in a country where a foreign Language is spoken-they gabble away Gaelic at a vast rate -numbers of them speak English. There are not many Kilts in Argyleshire-at Fort William they say a Man is not admitted into Society without one-the Ladies there have a horror at the indecency of Breeches. I cannot give you a better idea of Highland Life than by describing the place we are in. The Inn or public is by far the best house in the immediate neighbourhood. It has a white front with tolerable windows-the table I am 1 By Long Island Keats means, not of course the great chain of the Outer Hebrides so styled, but the little island of Luing, east of Scarba Sound. His account of the place from which he is writing, and its distance from Oban as specified in the paragraph added there next day, seem to identify it certainly as Kilmelfort. writing on surprises me as being a nice flapped Mahogany one. . . You may if you peep see through the floor chinks into the ground rooms. The old Grandmother of the house seems intelligent though not over clean. N.B. No snuff being to be had in the village she made us some. The Guid Man is a rough-looking hardy stout Man who I think does not speak so much English as the Guid wife who is very obliging and sensible and moreover though stockingless has a pair of old Shoes -Last night some Whisky Men sat up clattering Gaelic till I am sure one o'clock to our great annoyance. There is a Gaelic testament on the Drawers in the next room. White and blue China ware has crept all about here— Yesterday there passed a Donkey laden with tin-potsopposite the Window there are hills in a Mist—a few Ash trees and a mountain stream at a little distance.They possess a few head of Cattle.-If you had gone round to the back of the House just now-you would have seen more hills in a Mist-some dozen wretched black Cottages scented of peat smoke which finds its way by the door or a hole in the roof-a girl here and there barefoot. There was one little thing driving Cows down a slope like a mad thing. There was another standing at the cowhouse door rather pretty fac'd all up to the ankles in dirt. [Oban, July 21.] We have walk'd 15 Miles in a soaking rain to Oban opposite the Isle of Mull which is so near Staffa we had thought to pass to it - but the expense is 7 Guineas and those rather extorted.-Staffa you see is a fashionable place and therefore every one concerned with it either in this town or the Island are what you call up. 'Tis like paying sixpence for an apple at the playhouse this irritated me and Brown was not best pleased we have therefore resolved to set northward for fort William to-morrow morning. I fed upon a bit of white Bread to-day like a Sparrow-it was very fine-I cannot manage the cursed Oat Cake. Remember me to all and let me hear a good account of you at InvernessI am sorry Georgy had not those lines. Good-bye. Your affectionate Brother JOHN LXII. TO BENJAMIN BAILEY. Inverary, July 18 [1818]. And My dear Bailey-The only day I have had a chance of seeing you when you were last in London I took every advantage of some devil led you out of the way -Now I have written to Reynolds to tell me where you will be in Cumberland-so that I cannot miss you. when I see you, the first thing I shall do will be to read that about Milton and Ceres, and Proserpine-for though I am not going after you to John o' Grot's, it will be but poetical to say so. And here, Bailey, I will say a few words written in a sane and sober mind, a very scarce thing with me, for they may, hereafter, save you a great deal of trouble about me, which you do not deserve, and for which I ought to be bastinadoed. I carry all matters to an extreme-so that when I have any little vexation, it grows in five minutes into a theme for Sophocles. Then, and in that temper, if I write to any friend, I have so little self-possession that I give him matter for grieving at the very time perhaps when I am laughing at a Pun. Your last letter made me blush for the. pain I had given you I know my own disposition so well that I am certain of writing many times hereafter in the same strain to you-now, you know how far to believe in them. You must allow for Imagination. I know I shall not be able to help it. I am sorry you are grieved at my not continuing my visits to Little Britain-Yet I think I have as far as a Man can do who has Books to read and subjects to think upon-for that reason I have been nowhere else except to Wentworth Place so nigh at hand-moreover I have been too often in a state of health that made it prudent not to hazard the night air. Yet, further, I will confess to you that I cannot enjoy Society small or numerous— I am certain that our fair friends are glad I should come for the mere sake of my coming; but I am certain I bring with me a vexation they are better without—If I can possibly at any time feel my temper coming upon me I refrain even from a promised visit. I am certain I have not a right feeling towards women-at this moment, I am striving to be just to them, but I cannot— Is it because they fall so far beneath my boyish Imagination? When I was a schoolboy I thought a fair woman a pure Goddess; my mind was a soft nest in which some one of them slept, though she knew it not. I have no right to expect more than their reality-I thought them ethereal above men-I find them perhaps equal-great by comparison is very small. Insult may be inflicted in more ways than by word or action-One who is tender of being insulted does not like to think an insult against another. I do not like to think insults in a lady's company-I commit a crime with her which absence would not have known. Is it not extraordinary ?—when among men, I have no evil thoughts, no malice, no spleen-I feel free to speak or to be silent—I can listen, and from every one I can learn―my hands are in my pockets, I am free from all suspicion and comfortable. When I am among women, I have evil thoughts, malice, spleen-I cannot speak, or be silent-I am full of suspicions and therefore listen to nothing-I am in a hurry to be gone. You must be charitable and put all this perversity to my being disappointed since my boyhood. Yet with such feelings I am happier alone among crowds of men, by myself, or with a friend or two. With all this, trust me, I have not the least idea that men of different feelings and inclinations are more short-sighted than myself. I never rejoiced more than at my Brother's marriage, and shall do so at that of any of my friends. I must absolutely get over this-but how? the only way is to find |