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mobility of his frame could be discerned an incipient movement, as in the darkest night may be discerned light after a while. He was gradually sinking forwards. The lines of his features softened, and dismay modulated to illimitable sadness. Bathsheba was regarding him from the other side, still with parted lips and distracted eyes. Capacity for intense feeling is proportionate to the general intensity of the nature, and perhaps in all Fanny's sufferings, much greater, relatively to her strength, there never was a time when she suffered in an absolute sense what Bathsheba suffered now. This is what Troy did. He sank upon his knees with an indefinable union of remorse and reverence upon his face, and bending over Fanny Robin, gently kissed her, as one would kiss an infant asleep to avoid awakening it.

At the sight and sound of that, to her, unendurable act, Bathsheba sprang towards him. All the strong feelings which had been scattered over her existence since she knew what feeling was, seemed gathered together into one pulsation now. The revulsion from her indignant mood a little earlier, when she had meditated upon compromised honour, forestalment, eclipse by another, was violent and entire. All that was forgotten in the simple and still strong attachment of wife to husband. She had sighed for her self-completeness then, and now she cried aloud against the severance of the union she had deplored. She flung her arms round Troy's neck, exclaiming wildly from the deepest deep of her heart:

"I will not kiss you," he said, pushing her away.

Had the wife now but gone no further. Yet, perhaps, under the harrowing circumstances, to speak out was the one wrong act which can be better understood, if not forgiven in her, than the right and polite one. All the feeling she had been betrayed into showing she drew back to herself again by a strenuous effort of self-command.

"What have you to say as your reason?" she asked, her bitter voice being strangely low quite that of another

woman now.

"I have to say that I have been a bad, black-hearted man," he answered. "And that this woman is your victim; and I not less than she."

This.

"Ah! don't taunt me, madam. woman is more to me, dead as she is, than ever you were, or are, or can be. If Satan had not tempted me with that face of yours, and those cursed coquetries, I should have married her. I never had another thought till you came in my way. Would to God that I had; but it is all too late! I deserve to live in torment for this!" He turned to Fanny then. "But never mind, darling," he said; “in the sight of Heaven you are my very, very wife."

At these words there arose from Bathsheba's lips a long low cry of measureless despair and indignation, such a wail of anguish as had never before been heard within those old-inhabited walls. It was the Terέhora of her union with Troy.

"If she's that, — what am I?" she added, as a continuation of the same cry, and sobbing fearfully; and the rarity with her of such abandonment only made the condition more terrible.

"You are nothing to me nothing," said Troy, heartlessly. "A ceremony before a priest doesn't make a marriage. I am not morally yours."

"Don't don't kiss them! Oh, Frank, I can't bear it I can't! I love you better than she did: kiss me too, Frank kiss me! You will, Frank, kiss me too!" There was something so abnormal and startling in the childlike pain and simplicity of this appeal from a woman of Bathsheba's calibre and independence that Troy, loosening her tightly clasped A vehement impulse to flee from him, arms from his neck, looked at her in be- to run from this place, hide, and escape wilderment. It was such an unexpected humiliation at any price, not stopping revelation of all women being alike at short of death itself, mastered Bathsheba heart, even those so different in their ac-now. She waited not an instant, but cessories as Fanny and this one beside turned to the door and ran out.

him, that Troy could hardly seem to believe her to be his proud wife Bathsheba. Fanny's own spirit seemed to be animating her frame. But this was the mood of a few instants only. When the momentary surprise had passed, his expression changed to a silencing imperious gaze.

CHAPTER XLIV.

UNDER A TREE: REACTION.

BATHSHEBA went along the dark road, neither knowing nor caring about the direction or issue of her flight. The first time that she definitely noticed her posi

tion was when she reached a gate leading into a thicket overhung by some large oak and beech-trees. On looking into the place it occurred to her that she had seen it by daylight on some previous occasion, and that what appeared like an impassable thicket was in reality a brake of fern, now withering fast. She could think of nothing better to do with her palpitating self than to go in here and hide; and entering, she lighted on a spot sheltered from the damp fog by a reclining trunk, where she sank down upon a tangled couch of fronds and stems. She mechanically pulled some armfuls round her to keep off the breezes, and closed her eyes.

Whether she slept or not that night Bathsheba was not clearly aware. But it was with a freshened existence and a cooler brain that, a long time afterwards, she became conscious of some interesting proceedings which were going on in the trees above her head and around.

A coarse-throated chatter was the first sound.

It was a sparrow just waking. Next: "Chee-weeze - weeze-weeze!" from another retreat.

It was a finch.

get rid of them, when multitudes of the same family lying round about her rose and flattered away in the breeze thus created, "like ghosts from an enchanter fleeing."

There was an opening towards the east, and the glow from the as yet unrisen sun attracted her eyes thither. From her feet, and between the beautiful yellowing ferns with their feathery arms, the ground sloped downwards to a hollow, in which was a species of swamp, dotted with fungi. A morning mist hung over it now -a fulsome yet magnificent silvery veil, full of light from the sun, yet semi-opaque

the bedge behind it being in some measure hidden by its hazy luminousness. Up the sides of this depression grew sheaves of the common rush, and here and there a peculiar species of flag, the blades of which glistened in the emerging sun like scythes. But the general aspect of the swamp was malignant. From its moist and poisonous coat seemed to be exhaled the essences of evil things in the earth, and in the waters under the earth. The fungi grew in all manner of positions from rotting leaves and tree-stumps, some exhibiting to her listless gaze their clammy tops, others their oozing gills. Some

Third: "Tink-tink-tink-tink-a-chink!" were marked with great splotches, red as

from the hedge.

It was a robin.

"Chuck-chuck-chuck!" overhead.

A squirrel.

Then, from the road, "With my ra-tata, and my rum-tum-tum!"

arterial blood-others were saffron yellow, and others tall and attenuated with stems like macaroni. Some were leathery and of richest browns. The hollow seemed a nursery of pestilences small and great, in the immediate neighbourhood of comfort and health, and Bathsheba arose with a tremour at the thought of having passed the night on the brink of so dismal a place.

It was a ploughboy. Presently he came opposite, and she believed from his voice that he was one of the boys on her own farm. He was followed by a shambling tramp of heavy feet, and looking through There were now other footsteps to be the ferns Bathsheba could just discern heard along the road. Bathsheba's in the wan light of daylight a team of her nerves were still unstrung: she crouched own horses. They stopped to drink at a down out of sight again, and the pedespond on the other side of the way. She trian came into view. He was a schoolwatched them flouncing into the pool, boy, with a bag slung over his shoulder drinking, tossing up their heads, drink- containing his dinner, and a book in his ing again, the water dribbling from their hand. He paused by the gate, and, withlips in silver threads. There was an-out looking up, continued murmuring other flounce, and they came out of the words in tones quite loud enough to reach pond, and turned back again towards the her ears. farm.

She looked further around. Day was just dawning, and beside its cool air and colours her heated actions and resolves of the night stood out in lurid contrast. She perceived that in her lap, and clinging to her hair, were red and yellow leaves which had come down from the tree and settled silently upon her during her partial sleep. Bathsheba shook her dress to

"O Lord, O Lord, O Lord, O Lord, O Lord: '-that I know out o' book. 'Give us, give us, give us, give us, give us :'-that I know. Grace that, grace that, grace that, grace that:'-that I know." Other words followed to the same effect. The boy was of the dunce class apparently; the book was a psalter, and this was his way of learning the collect. In the worst attacks of trouble

there appears to be always a superficial film of consciousness which is left disengaged and open to the notice of trifles, and Bathsheba was faintly amused at the boy's method, till he too passed on.

By this time stupor had given place to anxiety, and anxiety began to make room for hunger and thirst. A form now appeared upon the rise on the other side of the swamp, half-hidden by the mist, and came towards Bathsheba. The female for it was a female approached with her face askance, as if looking earnestly on all sides of her. When she got a little further round to the left, and drew nearer, Bathsheba could see the new-comer's profile against the sunny sky, and knew the wavy sweep from forehead to chin, with neither angle nor decisive line anywhere about it, to be the familiar contour of Liddy Smallbury.

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Bathsheba's heart bounded with gratitude in the thought that she was not altogether deserted, and she jumped up. Oh, Liddy!" she said, or attempted to say; but the words had only been framed by her lips; there came no sound. She had lost her voice by exposure to the clogged atmosphere all these hours of night.

"Oh, ma'am! I am so glad I have found you,” said the girl, as soon as she saw Bathsheba.

"You can't come across," Bathsheba said in a whisper, which she vainly endeavoured to make loud enough to reach Liddy's ears. Liddy, not knowing this, stepped down upon the swamp, saying, as she did so, "It will bear me up, I

think."

Bathsheba never forgot that transient little picture of Liddy crossing the swamp to her there in the morning light. Iridescent bubbles of dank subterranean breath rose from the sweating sod beside the waiting-maid's feet as she trod, hissing as they burst and expanded away to join the vapory firmament above. Liddy did not sink, as Bathsheba had anticipated. She landed safely on the other side, and looked up at the beautiful though pale and weary face of her young mistress.

"Poor thing!" said Liddy, with tears in her eyes. "Do hearten yourself up a little, ma'am. However did.

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"I can't speak above a whisper-my voice is gone for the present," said Bathsheba, hurriedly. "I suppose the damp air from that hollow has taken it away. Liddy, don't question me, mind. Who sent you anybody?"

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"No; he left just before I came out." "Is Fanny taken away?" "Not yet. o'clock."

She will soon be at nine

"We won't go home at present, then. Suppose we walk about in this wood?" Liddy, without exactly understanding everything, or anything, in this episode, assented, and they walked together further among the trees.

"But you had better come in ma'am, and have something to eat. You will die of a chill!"

"I shall not come in doors yet — perhaps never."

"Shall I get you something to eat, and something else to put over your head besides that little shawl?"

"If you will, Liddy."

Liddy vanished, and at the end of twenty minutes returned with a cloak, hat, some slices of bread and butter, a tea-cup, and some hot tea in a little china jug.

"Is Fanny gone?" said Bathsheba. "No," said her companion, pouring out the tea.

Bathsheba wrapped herself up and ate and drank sparingly. Her voice was then a little clearer, and a trifling colour returned to her face. "Now we'll walk about again," she said.

They wandered about the wood for nearly two hours, Bathsheba replying in monosyllables to Liddy's prattle, for her mind ran on one subject, and one only. She interrupted with:

"I wonder if Fanny is gone by this time?"

"I will go and see."

She came back with the information that the men were just taking away the corpse; that Bathsheba had been inquired for; that she had replied to the effect that her mistress was unwell and could not be seen.

"Then they think I am in my bedroom?"

"Yes." Liddy then ventured to add: "You said when I first found you that you might never go home again - you didn't mean it, ma'am?”

"No; I've altered my mind. It is only women with no pride in them who run away from their husbands. There is one position worse than that of being found

dead in your husband's house from his ill usage, and that is to be found alive through having gone away to the house of somebody else. I've thought of it all this morning, and I've chosen my course. A runaway wife is an encumbrance to everybody, a burden to herself and a byword - all of which make up a heap of misery greater than any that comes by staying at home-though this may include the trifling items of insult, beating, and starvation. Liddy, if ever you marry God forbid that you ever should! -you'll find yourself in a fearful situation; but mind this, don't you flinch. Stand your ground, and be cut to pieces. That's what I'm going to do."

"Oh, mistress, don't talk so!" said Liddy, taking her hand; "but I knew you had too much sense to bide away. May I ask what dreadful thing it is that has happened between you and him?"

“You may ask; but I may not tell." In about ten minutes they returned to the house by a circuitous route, entering at the rear. Bathsheba glided up the back stairs to a disused attic, and her companion followed.

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"And that story of the black man who murdered his wife Desdemona? It is a nice dismal one that would suit you excellent just now."

"Now, Lidd, you've been looking into my books without telling me; and I said you were not to! How do you know it would suit me? It wouldn't suit me at all."

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"No, they don't; and I won't read dismal books. Why should I read dismal books, indeed? Bring me 'Love in a Village,' and the Maid of the Mill,' and Doctor Syntax,' and some volumes of the Spectator.'

All that day Bathsheba and Liddy lived in the attic in a state of barricade; a precaution which proved to be needless as against Troy, for he did not appear in the neighbourhood or trouble them at all. Bathsheba sat at the window till sunset, sometimes attempting to read, at other times watching every movement outside Liddy," she said, with a lighter heart, without much purpose, and listening withfor youth and hope had begun to re-as-out much interest to every sound. sert themselves; you are to be my con- The sun went down almost blood-red fidante for the present somebody must that night, and a livid cloud received its be- and I choose you. Well, I shall take rays in the east. Up against this dark up my abode here for a while. Will you background the west front of the church get a fire lighted, put down a piece of car-tower- the only part of the edifice vispet, and help me to make the place comfort-ible from the farm-house windows-rose able? Afterwards I want you and Mary-distinct and lustrous, the vane upon the ann to bring up that little iron bedstead pinnacle bristling with rays. Here, about in the small room, and the bed belong-six o'clock, the young men of the village ing to it, and the table, and some other gathered, as was their custom, for a game things. . . . What shall I do to pass the of fives. The tower had been conseheavy time away!" crated to this ancient diversion from time "Hemming handkerchiefs is a very immemorial, the western façade convengood thing," said Liddy.

"Oh, no, no! I hate needle-workalways did." "Knitting?"

"And that, too."

"You might finish your sampler. Only the carnations and peacocks want filling in; and then it could be framed and glazed, and hung beside your aunt's,

ma'am."

iently forming the boundary of the Ichurch-yard at that end, where the ground was trodden hard and bare as a pavement by the players. She could see the balls flying upwards, almost to the belfry window, and the brown and black heads of the young lads darting about right and left, their white shirt-sleeves gleaming in the sun; whilst occasionally a shout and a peal of hearty laughter varied the stillness of the evening air. They continued playing for a quarter of an hour or so, when the game concluded abruptly, and the players leapt over the wall and vanished round to the north side behind a yew-tree, which was also Yes. Some of those we stowed away half behind a beech, now spreading in in boxes." A faint gleam of humour one mass of golden foliage, on which the passed over her face as she said: "Bring | branches traced black lines.

"Samplers are out of date- horribly countrified. No, Liddy, I'll read. Bring up some books -not new ones. I haven't heart to read anything new." "Some of your uncle's old ones, ma'am?"

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"Why did the fives-players finish their game so suddenly?" Bathsheba inquired, the next time that Liddy entered the

room.

"I think 'twas because two men came just then from Casterbridge and began putting up a grand carved tombstone," said Liddy. "The lads went to see whose it was." "Do you know?" Bathsheba asked. "I don't," said Liddy.

From Blackwood's Magazine. INTERNATIONAL VANITIES.

NO. VII. ALIEN LAWS.

EUROPEAN nations are now so courteous to their visitors, wandering in all their lands has become so pleasant, the faculty of going safely everywhere on the Continent is so absolute, that our generation may really be almost excused if, under the soothing influence of such undisputed liberty, it sometimes forgets that this state of things is altogether modern, and that civility to foreigners is a new invention. We all regard it as quite ordinary, because we are accustomed to it, just as monarchs think it natural to reign and tailors to sit crosslegged; but, simple as it seems to-day, it has needed centuries for its development. That its exact contrary used to be the rule can be proved by any boy at school, who will tell us that the Romans expressed foreigner and foe by the selfsame word; and that the example of mixing up the two ideas which was thus set by that model people was followed with such eagerness by other less model races, that everybody throughout the world vigorously and patriotically slaughtered all his neighbours. The result was that, as commerce was not quite invented, people scarcely ever visited each other's soil except as conquerors or as prisoners, and that the latter situation had but two known issues - death or slavery. There were no Brussels Conferences then; it occurred to no one that the habits of the period were perhaps a little rough; and just as we see no ground now for modifying the arrangements under which we live (we may refer again to Brussels as a proof thereof), so, in those days, neither Romans nor barbarians recognized any reason for diminishing their habitual ill usage of the foreigners who, for any reason, came

amongst them. It would therefore have been about as useful to suggest to them that it was desirable to treat outsiders gently, as it is to urge upon young gentlemen of our own period that possibly it is cruel to pull off the legs of grasshoppers or the wings of cockchafers. Barbarism and childhood agree in thinking that torturing is an evidence of superiority; the only difference between them on the point is, that men are victims in the one case and insects in the other. It was to demonstrate this superiority that strangers were universally pursued, in former days, with a unanimity and a fierceness of which we see no examples now in Europe save when a Paris mob throws a policeman into the Seine. But that mob is actuated by mere brutal violence, whereas the barbarian, our ancestor, slew foreigners to satisfy his people's pride. It is true that he had other motives too; his notions of political economy were singularly incorrect; but, such as they were, they led him to the impression that his pocket interests suffered (it must not be inferred that because he had no clothes he had no pockets) by the presence of trading aliens on his soil; he fancied that they deprived him of some portion of the profit or the food to which he, the territorial inhabitant, was alone entitled; but notwithstanding this, the ferocious attitude which he took up towards all intruders was, in the main, a manifestation of international conceit, as his lights enabled him to understand and practice it. Cruelty towards all other races constituted, in his eyes, an indisputable expression of supremacy; and though that way of manifesting power and pride has gone officially out of use in Europe in time of peace, we see it still employed as a permanent institution by the savages of other continents, and may judge of the habitual practices of our own forefathers by the actual proceedings of Red Indians and Afghans.

As the symptoms of the vanity of nations which have been enumerated in preceding numbers of this magazine belonged almost entirely to the category of pure vainglories, they have inclined us to suppose that the subject takes no other form. Here, however, we see it in a new light; here it suddenly becomes all wrath and murder. Here we discover that it would be a grave error to imagine that the self-esteem of nationalities has always limited its action to ridiculous formalities and exaggerated pretensions ;

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