Nay, smile not at my sullen brow, And dost thou ask, what secret wo I bear, corroding joy and youth? It is not love, it is not hate, Nor low Ambition's honours lost, That bids me loathe my present state, And fly from all I prized the most: It is that weariness which springs It is that settled ceaseless gloom The fabled Hebrew wanderer bore; That will not look beyond the tomb, But cannot hope for rest before. What Exile from himself can flee? To Zones, though more and more remote, Still, still pursues, ues, where'er I be, The blight of life-the demon thought. Yet others rapt in pleasure seem, And taste of all that I forsake; Through many a clime 'tis mine to go, 3 What is that worst? Nay do not ask- J REMORSE. The spirits I have raised abandon meThe spells which I have studied baffle meThe remedy I recked of tortured me; I lean no more on super-human aid, It hath no power upon the past, and for The future, till the past be gulfed in darkness, It is not of my search. - My mother earth! And thou fresh breaking day, and you, ye mountains, Why are ye beautiful? I cannot love ye. And thou, the bright eye of the universe, Thou openest over all, and unto all Art a delight-thou shin'st not on my heart. And you, ye crags, upon whose extreme edge I stand, and on the torrent's brink beneath Behold the tall pines dwindled as to shrubs In dizziness of distance; when a leap, A stir, a motion, even a breath, would bring My breast upon its rocky bosom's bed To rest for ever-wherefore do I pause? I feel the impulse-yet I do not plunge; I see the peril-yet do not recede; And my brain reels-and yet my foot is firm; There is a power upon me which withholds, And makes it my fatality to live; If it be life to wear within myself This barrenness of spirit, and to be My own soul's sepulchre, for I have ceased To justify my deeds unto myselfThe last infirmity of evil. Aye, |