What are they, if they know their calling high, Or weeping clouds, that but a while are seen, Once, and but once,-nor with a scornful face Tried worth will hear,-that scene again took place. Partly by chance they met, partly to see The spot where they had last gone cheerfully, But most, from failure of all self-support ;— And oh the meeting in that loved resort! No peevishness there was, no loud distress, No mean retort of sorry selfishness But a mute gush of hiding tears from one Clasped to the core of him, who yet shed none,— And self-accusings then, which he began, And into which her tearful sweetness ran; And then kind looks, with meeting eyes again, Till half persuasions they could scarce do wrong, And why should I add more?-again they parted, He doubly torn for her, and she nigh broken-hearted. She never ventured in that spot again; And Paulo knew it, but could not refrain; A vain negation, that could stand no test; He found himself (how could he think of it!) A selfish boaster, and a hypocrite. That thought before had grieved him; but the pain Cut sharp and sudden, now it came again. Sick thoughts of late had made his body sick, And this, in turn, to them grown strangely quick ; And pale he stood, and seemed to burst all o'er Into moist anguish never felt before, And with a dreadful certainty to know, His peace was gone, and all to come was woe. Nor what can cure a generous heart of pain,- He thought, with quick philosophy, of things Merit, and will, and thoughtful charity: And furnished him, at least, with something kind, On which to lean a sad and startled mind: Till youth, and natural vigour, and the dread Of self-betrayal, and a thought that spread From time to time in gladness o'er his face, Though grave at heart, and with himself at strife ; And mount his favourite horse, and ride away As he glode by, to force his thoughts without; And, when he found it vain, would pierce the shade Of some enwooded field or closer glade, And there dismounting, idly sit, and sigh, Or pluck the grass beside him with vague eye, But thus, at least, he exercised his blood, And kept it livelier than inaction could; And thus he earned for his thought-working head The power of sleeping when he went to bed, And was enabled still to wear away That task of loaded hearts, another day. But she, the gentler frame,—the shaken flower, Her strength alive, but sit, and think, and weep, And oh, the morrow, how it used to rise! Rushing upon her, almost turn away, |